I heard a choking, gasping sound and looked around, then realized it was coming from me. This was a kind of horrid scene from a television show, but this couldn't be real life. Our real life. My body went numb again and the doctor?s voice grew farther and farther away. My baby was going to die. And nothing would be the same ever again. Losing a child isn't the end of the world. It could be, but it isn't. So what happens to a mother during and after such a life-altering tragedy? Author Amy Lyon invites readers on her journey as she shuffles (less than perfectly) through the ruins of loss to find that, buried beneath the thick layers of sorrow, hope and joy can exist? even if you refuse to believe.